living with big emotions

living with big emotions

I have big feelings. By that I mean, my emotions frequently overpower me; I’m always at the superlative end of the emotional spectrum. Enraged, distraught, overjoyed, overwhelmed. This isn’t a particularly popular trait. Perhaps it’s a British thing – a lingering hangover from those cheery Victorian folk, all stiff upper lip and saucy table legs – but strong emotions are still seen as the hallmark of the weak, irrational & immature. While the latter might…

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what’s in a name? the pros and cons of a married name

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I’ve been deliberating about my married name. At first it seemed simple. Before he’d even proposed, both R and I loosely assumed I would take his name; I  liked the romance of it, felt my typical longing to belong. It seemed such a fait accomplis that we readily registered Orla with his Irish surname. Even the dog has his family name called out at the vets. Sometime after he’d proposed, my clarity faded. Perhaps it…

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Sonny Sunshine {100 stories}

  {100 stories}:  A COLLECTION OF FICTIONAL FRAGMENTS & UNFINISHED RAMBLINGS   Sonny doesn’t talk. They tell me not to say that, but then they tell me all sorts of things – he’s waiting to surprise me, just turn off the TV, boys are slower to develop than girls. Give him time – I get that one a lot. It doesn’t make any difference: he just doesn’t talk. As a baby he never shut up.…

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show & tell: March

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What do you mean it’s April?! Somehow, despite acknowledging April fools day & escaping unscathed, it still didn’t register that this meant March was entirely over. Better hurry up and write this post! (Click the pictures above for full size) ONE. Every year our little village enters (and wins) a ‘village in bloom’ competition – usually despite our total lack of participation. This year we decided to make a bit of an effort, and Orla’s found…

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drawing the lines

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How do you decide what you share online -and what do you hold back? It’s something that regularly comes up often during mentoring conversations – our sessions invariably slipping a little into blogging too (& one of the reasons I’m changing things up). Where do you draw the line? Authenticity is still the hashtag du jour online, and for most of us it’s roughly the reason we started; to have a voice, to tell our side…

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Me & Luke Skywalker

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It’s not about the fangirling. Really, it’s just a fresh combination of all the things I love. It’s a little bit of fangirling, yes – but it’s also cameras & comedy & camaraderie & creativity too! It’s the brilliant incongruence of shooting Luke-freaking-Skywalker on a stylised winter picnic; the unrelenting giggling as we try to prop him up in sun-dappled bluebells or save him from the tide on a cold Berwick beach.  It’s the way that the…

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‘kind of a big deal’

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Some months I feel like nothing’s happening, and some months it all comes at once. This is one of the second type, I guess; suddenly my name’s in lots of new places & it’s a bit easier to understand where all my time goes. ‘I’m kind of a big deal‘ I tell Rory, from my position lying facedown on the sofa. ‘I can no longer be expected to make my own cups of tea.‘ I’m…

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Cafe Stories: the lonely people

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I’m sat, typing away, when the cafe door bangs open and a stocky man with a booming voice strides in. He’s shouting at me. ‘Who are you in my cafe?’ He has wide set eyes and his hands are balled into fists. He must be over 6 foot tall. I think about how scary this would be for somebody else. Glancing up, & I smile and say, ‘hi, I’m Sara, it’s nice to meet you’ …

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unwedding

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I don’t want a wedding. Ok, that’s not entirely true – I want a big party, I always want cake, & I’m thrilled to be officially teaming up with R for life. That stuff really appeals. I guess what I really mean is, I don’t want a conventional wedding. I don’t want chair covers and frilly centrepieces; no organza bows, ‘colour schemes’, seating plans & gift lists. No chicken or beef option; no ‘money behind…

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show & tell: February + an ad space giveaway

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ONE: Everything seems frantic & frenetic right now – my to-do list is out of hand and my inbox overflowing, despite having an assistant now to help me out (FANCY, right? 💁🏻). While that all sounds theoretically great, it’s a little overwhelming, so I’m taking stock, reassessing and changing what I say yes to for the future.  That might be my very favourite thing about this strange new-media world I find myself in; when something doesn’t fit,…

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